” For when a child is born the mother also is born again” ~ Gilbert Parker
Dear Riyansh, you have turned five now. I am going to celebrate mother’s day with you for the fifth year. Becoming your mother has never been easy. You are not my first born. Before having you in my life, I had to suffer the heartache of losing a little one who slipped to heaven before coming to the world. After that unexpected miscarriage at the starting of the second trimester, I was broken, shattered. I almost gave up the hope of becoming a mother, and just then you came to my womb like a ray of sunshine. I started living again, dreaming again.
These nine months were not a rosy path. After some tears and prayers, many moments of pain and frustration, a lot of anticipation of a high-risk complicated pregnancy finally you came to my world. The feeling of holding the tiny you for the first time in my shaky hands is still afresh. My heart was aching with joy. For the first time in my life, I felt that unconditional love towards a little human being whom I never met before. It was love at first sight indeed.
“Sometimes the strength of motherhood is greater than natural laws”~ Barbara Kingsolver
So was it like happily ever after from there on? No, motherhood is not that simple and sorted. Being a mother is a roller coaster ride, sometimes it’s exciting, the next moment it’s scary.
When you were detected with neonatal jaundice just after the second day of your birth, they shifted you to NICU for photo therapy. With all the scars, stitches and unimaginable pain of a c-section delivery, I got up from the bed in the 3rd day itself and started walking to the NICU , every two hours just to breastfeed you. I wanted to give you the best. Yes, motherhood can move mountains. A mother can go to any level for her child’s well being.
After a few days, we took you home. As a first time, inexperienced parents, we were always cautious, over-possessive with you. There were sleepless nights, midnight visits to the emergency wards even if you cried a little more than usual or puked a few times.
“Silence is golden. Unless you have kids. Then silence is just suspicious”.~ Anonymous
As you grew up day by day, motherhood became chaotic, messy and maddening. You became the little monster. Life became as difficult as walking on a rope, a balancing act between work, playdate, feeding, potty cleaning and story time. Weeks started falling short. There are moments when after doing so much I feel like not doing anything. Being a mother can be overwhelming sometimes.
“Motherhood is… difficult and… rewarding ” ~Gloria Estefan
We have our share of happy moments too. When you took the first step, called me mama for the first time, started singing the rhymes for the first time ever, as a mother it felt like getting a noble or Pulitzer prize. I had never felt so proud in my life even when achieved something big academically or professionally. When you fall asleep, the little monster in you turns into a little angel. Last month I was down with fever and you cried your hearts out saying, mama please don’t die. It just melts my heart.
Every day, Holding your hand, I walk down the memory lane of my childhood. With you, I experience the same bond I shared with my mother. I see the world through your curious eyes. You made me a better person, a stronger human being, both mentally and physically. I have become more patient, more mature. I have traveled a long way in these five years. From being a fragile girl, I have turned into a strong woman. You are my weakness but Motherhood is my superpower.
‘Stories you can wear ‘ from Thread Tank
This mother’s day I am celebrating my motherhood journey with Thread Tank wearing their Mother’s day special ‘Stories you can wear ‘ tees. They have launched their new collection of Mother’s Day t-shirts which are perfect for the upcoming occasion. These tees make some excellent Mother’s day gifts too. Thread Tank T-shirts are designed and printed in house and are made to order by a wonderful production team by using quality ink and excellent material which can withstand the test of time (and washes).Use code “SUDIPA15” to get 15% off on any mom related tees valid till Mother’s Day May 12th!Click here to buy the ‘Motherhood is my Super Power’ t-shirt I am wearing.
N.B: Even though this post was sponsored by Thread Tank, all the opinions are solely mine.
55 Comments
Divya
So beautiful!
Sudipa
Thank you Divya
Viji
Wow! You made me realize my motherhood.very sweet mama and boy😍
Sudipa
Thank you so much
Saket
Well described emotions …
Sudipa
Thank you so much
Rosy Behera
Yet to feel that strength. But so far what I understood is motherhood can’t be compared with anything. Beautiful touch to your own motherhood ❤️ Loved your T-shirt Dii. Give my love to Rishu too😊😘
Sudipa
Glad that you liked it Rosy
Sudipa
You will also experience it one day.Thank you Rosy
Shannon. mann
This is a beautiful tribute to your son which I am sure he will cherish
Sudipa
I hope so. Thank you so much
Ashli Ferguson
This is wonderful!!! You guys are lucky to have each other and he is also soooo cute!
Sudipa
Yes true.Thank you so much
Jennifer
This is beautiful. Thank you for sharing!
Jennifer
Effortlessly Sophisticated
Sudipa
Glad that you liked it Jennifer
cait
haha YES i love this ha motherhood is def my super power as well 😉 your little one is lucky to have such an awesome mom like yourself! keep it up!
Sudipa
And I am lucky to have him in my life.Thank you Cait
Michael
Thanks for sharing! Truly, it is difficult but rewarding as well. Enjoy those times!
Sudipa
It truly is.Thank you
Stacey
So vulnerable. Thank you so much for sharing!
Clari
Aw! Precious! My daughter is 3 months and I am so looking forward to the next five years! ❤
Usha
Very well expressed as always…
Sudipa
Thank You Usha
Joseph Abimbola
Mmmmh, motherhood taught me a lot of things. It is indeed tiring but rewarding.
Sudipa
Yes every day I am learning.Thank you
Ozella
Beautiful pictures. I love the idea of writing a letter to your kid. I used to write in a journal for my kids but it’s hard to keep up because I tend to not think about it but writing a letter every so often so my kids have a collection of letters from me when I’m no longer here is something i would definitely consider. Motherhood is my greatest accomplishment.
Sudipa
keeping a journal is such a great idea. I read this to him and he understood and kissed me so affectionately.really we are blessed
Sharapu
Beautiful post…your stories of trekking to the NICU while still healing from a c-section to nurse brought back memories of my own introduction to biological motherhood. Thank you for sharing you heart!
Sudipa
GreT to know a rockstar mother like you.
Melissa
So beautiful! There is certainly nothing like being a momma! I love it!
Sudipa
Thank you so much
Arun
Thank you for sharing your journey with us. You are an amazing mom. Best wishes for the mother’s day.
Samar
Very expressive post.
I liked the quotes reference especially the one by Gilbert Parker, For when a child is born the mother also is born again.
Thanks for sharing.
Elizabeth Hawks
This will be a treasure. Do you scrapbook? You should consider printing this out for your son to read in the future 🙂
Bai-Leigh
Love this!! Love all these superhero mamas!
Abbigayle Warner
This was such a lovely mommy and me post!
Nandita
Motherhood at best is a rollercoaster of emotions, nostalgia, and nerves. Totally resonate Gilbert Parker’s views that when a child is born, a mother is born again too… a wonderful letter from mom to son…he’d surely appreciate it when old enough to understand.
– Nandita
Sudipa
Thank you for your kind words, Nandita
Alexandra Cook
This is a great post to ponder. I love that topic. It shows how motherhood formed in our daily living.
Sudipa
Thank you So much
Agnes Vazhure
It seems that you had a wonderful day with your son. It sounds that you are an awesome momma to your kid.
Czjai Reyes-Ocampo
What a lovely statement tee! And yes, motherhood is indeed a super power. 🙂
Sudipa
Thank you
Morgan
This is such a sweet post and I love those tees!
Neha
Very heart touching post I had tears in my eyes while reading this post and I like the t-shirts too.
Sudipa
I know Neha.No one can relate better than mothers like you. Yes motherhood is our superpower
Lieze Neven
This is so cute! Your little man looks very dapper !
Joanna
This is such a beautiful letter to your son. He will appreciate it so much when we will grow older, it is so heartwarming.
Mickal Lewis
This is so awesome. I really enjoyed your blog this week this is something everyone can enjoy!
Ogbugbu Ejiroghene
mother are irreplaceable for me, don’t know of others, i love my mother, so its mother all the way
Ashh
Such a beautiful letter and a post for mothers day.
Kath Rivera
What a lovely article for your son. I admire you for being a superhero. Cheers!
jessa b
You are a superwoman babe!
Tushar
The way you’ve written this post as a letter to your kid is really fascinating. I can’t help but imagine my mother reading it to me.
Kat
What a great open letter to your son. This is the sweetest thing ever !